Section 48

Everything is equal, from the body to the soul. The body is no greater than the soul along with the soul not being any greater than the body. The greatest greatness to ever survive is one’s self. God cannot be greater than I nor you. Loneliness is a sickness that leads us all to our dying beds due to inability to ask for help we walk a lonely road alone to meet with death. There we rest, still thinking highly of ourselves or others. There he stood, broke as hell without a dime to his name, he will still own himself as I become one with the earth. Looking back at everything with just a glance, he learned everything once again. Whatever we do in our employment doesn’t make us a hero when all we are doing is making money, heroes aren’t heroes if they wouldn’t do something just out of the kindness of their heart without a goal of gaining something else out of it. There is nothing so weightless to be able to float along the skies and universes as we ourselves carry the weight of our guilt that weighs us down. Everyone around, let go of your guilt and regrets for it only holds you back from all the wonders in this world. Let everything go so you can soar in life with the biggest wings and you will be happy. To everyone, don’t keep wondering about God and spend your time trying to find him out. He is curious about everything except God. He wondered about the birds and the grass and the sun but never God. For he is peaceful and has no worries about dying and meeting God, he has had no doubts about him and the afterlife so he is contemptuous with it all. God is in everything, he has questioned everything in this world yet he does not understand God in the least. He doesn’t understand who can be more wonderful than himself because he sees God in me. Why does everyone wish to see God? Why should he follow and wish to see God on this day? He doesn’t need to wish to see God because when he opens my eyes there God is, in the leaves, in the flowers, in the sky, the air and everything else. He never goes a moment in his day without seeing God, so he doesn’t need to wish to see God. He sees God in everyone, mothers and fathers, sisters and brothers, we are all children of God and he sees him in every one of you. When he sees himself he sees God, God’s great creation of himself. In everyone’s letters out on the streets, on the ground, everywhere is God’s own writing and letter to us along with everyone’s signature with names God has given to us. He left everything where they are placed, for God has placed them there for a reason and everyone has a reason to be where they are every blade of grass every footstep across the street everything. People will come here from far and wide to see the greatness forever.

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Debate- Pro Pay To Play

My debate is about pay to play which is about students needing to pay a fee to be able to participate in an activity that the school provides. I fight for schools to have pay to play. My personal position on pay to play though is against it, I have personally participated in as much as Bloomsburg High School has to offer ranging from the sports to the clubs to performing arts. If I had to pay to participate in everything I have participated in or even just tried out I would be in major debt and I don’t find a positive to having schools implement this to their system. I know that not many schools are doing this because I haven’t heard much about it, around our area we don’t struggle too much with funding for sports but when we do we usually always have a fundraiser to keep it open. With a basic google search there were a lot of angry mom blogs complaining about costs and how ridiculous it is and that their townships are too poor for it. I’m going to try to search for why schools are doing this and why they weren’t able to resort to anything else. One issue could be that schools aren’t perceived as sports complexes but instead educational campuses. This topic really shouldn’t have too many emotions brought to it except for understanding the other side and staying calm and logical that way my side of the debate is put across well and heard all the way through with good understanding. If I go in with anger people can think that I am trying to fight for a way to get schools more money but if I go in with an understanding of the other side and maybe a bit of pity people will see that it is not the schools faults and that they are not wanting to make their students pay to play it is just what they are resorting to. My hope on this project is to understand why and find another way besides pay to play or some way that pay to play can be altered so that it works for all households.

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Hating Poems More In Class

The poems we read in school always finds a way to bore me and makes me not care as much for poetry like I do in the summertime or any other time that isn’t a teacher talking about poetry or making us read poetry. I tried to find out why this is and what makes me dislike poetry when I know for a fact I love to sit down with a poetry book and could sit for hours and read multiple without pausing. Looking at the poetry we read in class like for example this year we read Eldorado and I didn’t exactly hate it but I definitely would not see myself reading it outside of class. We also read some poetry from old poetry books and I realized that they were so boring to read. In class we talk about how to dissect a poem. So when I’m reading this old poetry some of it I will read and really enjoy but right when I start overthinking it and start to try to fit it into a style like formalism or freestyle or even neoformalism I feel my brain start to feel hatred toward the poem. What I don’t understand is how I can read my books of poetry and adore every word on each page but once I get to school and have to rip a poem apart and piece it back together I react right away with disliking of even reading poetry and boredom of even thinking about doing it. In the beginning of the lesson I had messed up one of the assignments and ripped apart one of the poems from my favorite books and I enjoyed it, finding the meaning, breaking it into pieces, and thinking about everything that went into the poem. So why is it that I can’t stand reading poetry at school? It’s wanting to clean your room than right when you start your parent tells you that you have to do it and right away you don’t want to do it anymore just because they told you so. Reading is as addictive as watching Netflix but right when we are forced to read in school we don’t want to do it anymore. I believe that this is how I work with poetry outside and inside of school. Right when I am forced to work with poetry and told I have to deal with it, I don’t want to anymore and it isn’t enjoyable anymore.

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Six word story, then to now.

When I had decided which six words to use my choice went to “with bloody hands, I say goodbye.” and I chose it because I thought right away, okay main character gets killed off at the end of the story. The question of how arose and I began to think of why. I decided my main character would be suicidal due to at home problems. I didn’t have the high society family idea until I was making my draft and I decided that families who are seen a lot publicly and have to deal with feeling as if they have to be perfect can bring a lot of stress. School life didn’t pop up until I had thought of making it during the summer time but realized a crowded school setting could reference how crowded her mind is with bad thoughts and when she is alone she is calmer. My original idea was to make Minthe a disappointment to her family by making her want to be an artist but I quickly realized it would be hard to apply her in a situation where she is trying to find ways to make a living off of it. By realizing this I decided to make her want to be a singer and placed her on the boardwalk which also gave a chance for people from her school to recognize her. My most favorite thing about writing this story is being able to play around with the dialogue and make conflicts. My least favorite part about the story is writing about the home life because I know some people do struggle with this situation when they go home and I wish I could write it better but I feel like I’m over exaggerating it or under exaggerating it. While I’ve been reading my book on the side I have pulled out some of the main characters family problems because she is in a mental hospital and she continuously refers to how bad her mom is. I ended up deciding that way to make the mother the bad person. I also read about Greek myths on my free time so I decided to name all of  Minthes family after Greek myths.

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Humor In Girl In Pieces

My book isn’t a humorous one, and I don’t think much humor would fit due to the fact that it is about a girl who is in a hospital for cutting herself along with other girls. The only humor that would fit would have to be fairly dark humor. In the last few pages I just read I found out that Jen, a girl in the hospital with Charlie, was messing around with Doc Dooley, a very handsome doctor, and they got caught after doing it for a fairly long time apparently. When Charlie was talking to Louisa, a girl who has been there for a very long time, she says how no guys will like them because they are messed up and cut up, at least, no boys would like them in the normal way she goes on to say. Louisa could have lightened up the topic by chuckling and comparing themselves to cut up vegetables for a soup of sad girls with tears of broth.

Girl In Pieces

For my first book of the new school year I decided on reading Girl in Pieces. I chose to read Girl in Pieces due to loving suicidal books or asylum books. The main character, Charlotte, is introduced to the reader outside a hospital with nothing covering her but a bed sheet and she was under horrible conditions from self-harm. A guard finds her and she described how she could remember that night so vividly, with the stars “like salt against the sky, like someone spilled the shaker against very dark cloth.” When the story moves to where she is stationed in the asylum, it introduces the people that are there with her along with the staff and their nicknames. Charlotte doesn’t talk during the time she is in the asylum so everyone calls her “Silent Sue” and she communicates with writing on notes to people, even the staff. The reader gets to find out the unhappy side to everyone and sees how everyone reacts to different situations, for example, Charlotte loses her temper due to the rude doctor not telling her how long she has been there. She just wants to know how long she has been in there away from her friends but they aren’t supposed to tell her so he refuses and acts cocky. Once she gets angry and starts throwing things and fighting back he is seen as scared of her instead being scared of him. She says how she thinks he assumes that she is scared of him but for this moment it is turned around. After losing her mind and throwing everything in the office the staff members decide its best for her to do online school so she doesn’t stay up all night anymore and has some sort of project to do. Charlotte also finds out that the staff had to empty her bag due to it being safer for her but they still wouldn’t let her have her bag. She just wants to draw again so the one staff member who is nice and cares about her says she will see if she what she can do but there was no sketch book, charcoals, or pencils found in her bag.