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My initial reaction to the poem was that I was not a big fan of it and in complete honesty, I was not a big fan of it in the end. One of the things i love about both poems and music is that you can feel exactly what they are feeling without ever experiencing it. They use their words to convey the message of what they want to say. That being said I like to read poems about things that i can care about and relate to. There is not a single scenario in which i believe that everyone or anyone for that matter in the entire world can be 100% good. So i kind of shut down from the beginning which is not any slight to the author if we are still reading and bisecting and supposed to be taking something from a poem this old it must have something worth learning from. to me, the best line from our assigned section was from section 6.
A child said What is the grass? fetching it to me with full hands;
How could I answer the child? I do not know what it is any more
I like this line because it highlights something that i think is very important. We spend our whole lives trying to understand others. We work together and we make friends and form relationships but we do not truly understand anyone and why they are the way they are. People will always have secrets and people will always do things without reason. I think that most people are not the most genuine version of who they are so judging off actions it is still very hard to know if people are being an honest version of themselves. If i am being completely honest i feel like a lot of people go their whole lives and do not even understand themselves. I had a lot of difficulties with this work because there was not a lot of room for a personal interpretation. I felt like every time you said that this line of the poem meant this is thought it meant something completely different. So i found it frustrating when i could not make the connections i was supposed to be making.
The benefits of leaving behind society as Thoreau did would be that: you have an opportunity to do things on your own. You have a chance to discover things without the input and stress of others opinions and ideas. Another benefit is that you do not need to do things like work there is no need for things like money and materialistic items (except things that are absolutely needed) because you are living off of the land. Yet another benefit is the fact that you are not really facing any pressure. Like there is the pressure of trying to live in an unfamiliar environment on your own and trying to survive which i would assume would be pretty difficult but pressures such as grades and jobs and to have friends and such do not really matter anymore. And for me personally school is one of the things that weigh on me the most and I really would not mind that pressure leaving. I would miss a lot of things especially things I take for granted such as my house which has heat and readily available food ( sometimes because so days I feel like there is nothing to eat in my whole house). I would miss the internet and being able to post on my finsta about one hundred times a day even though i know no one really cares about it. I would miss TV and my bed quite a bit and i would definitely miss the constant access i have to my friends. I would miss my family as well even though they get on every single nerve I have I do not like to be without them. I guess I would be pretty lonely. It is interesting because out of all those things i did not really say anything with any substantial value besides my family. LIke i would miss dumb things like netflix which i say is a small price to pay. I mean it would really really suck and I would probably be miserable but it is not forever and there is a lot up for gain.
So writing my debate was pretty hard. I was not a big fan of writing it out instead of debating which would have saved me a lot of stress considering i was not one of the people who wrote it all out from the start. I was more stressed because I was not supportive of my argument in the beginning. The more i read about it the more i realized I was probably on the right side of the debate. I did not really like that things had to be certain lengths though because i personally feel like if i get my point across i got my point across you feel like i can make a pretty good start in less than 4 minutes. I really did not change my way of argument in my everyday life. For the purpose of the assignment i will play the game but i real life it is not practical to make a whole thing to get your way because most times a compromise is easier and if i am going, to be honest, i tend to get my way with most things anyway. In an everyday dispute, i am pretty good. I still feel as though most times you will not be able to really change someone’s opinion during a debate because i changed sides because i was not really well informed but if someone is passionate and well informed about their side they probably will not be swayed by another person opinion like it may open up their eyes to the other side which is good but will it really change their mindset probably not. especially on more controversial topics like abortion and the wall people are normally set in their views for such things due to their morals which tend to influence more than facts especially if they were raised in such a way because how you are thought things is normally how you stick with things because its drilled into your head for so long. But in my case my debate did change my mind because there was a lot of things that i had not learned before .
so I wrote this only for me to accidentally delete it so that is lit. But my debate topic is the negative side of recreational marijuana. I honestly think I am going to have a hard time with this. Unlike the 70’s the information coming out about weed is mostly positive and it is becoming more and more acceptable. The legalization process is coming across the United States as a whole and even our neighbors like Canada have legalized it. Also it is hard to argue because it has no affect on me. For 1 i am still underage and 2 if someone is smoking it has zero affect on me or mine. So i personally believe that it should be legal it some use it to treat their anxiety disorders and i said it really does not affect me. The only attack I think would be to use is emotional appeal because if you can play onto the fear that smoking can lead to other more dangerous drugs. Also legalizing it opens that can of worms of what to do with those who were already convicted of selling or possession and that is something that no one has a solution to yet. Also the federal nor local government is equipped to deal with the surge of cases that would cause. Also it is not labeled as a gateway drug which i think is false because it can lead to a desensitization to other drugs and it can lead to people getting into other things when trying to chase a high especially those who have to take a drug test and need something that leaves the system quicker. The ethical argument that can be made is why to make any drug legal natural or not is it really safe to have mind altering substances available to the public for anyone to use and get a hold of not really like it could lead to the push to legalize things like magic mushrooms. i honestly think I am going to have a hard time with this debate i will have to do a lot of research to find something solid.
My debate would be if debates are even worth doing. Let us be honest with ourselves here has there ever been a time your mind was changed in A debate. If you are debating about something most likely it has some type of meaning to you or you are passionate about the topic. At that point you will already pretty much be set in your opinion. You could argue that it is good to hear others peoples ideas but at that point you can just have a normal discussion if you really care that much. If you could not already tell i am opposed to debates there really is not a point solve your problems with a discussion. Like you are not going get in a fight and then hop on to a podium in real life. So about the whole school thing as you could tell by taking a little trip and looking at any of my previous blogs I do not like it. It is tiring and boring and honestly to stressful so i choose not to care. Like the fact that the decisions i make at 16 are going to have an affect on the rest of my life is big stupid. Like I am just trying to have a good time and worry about life later like I am to young to be stressing over this goonery. If I could do anything differently i would have scheduled different classes i do not even know why i picked hard ones like i have something i need to prove we all know i am big dumb. There is nothing i can do to change it to be honest because my name is not Thanos and i can not go back in time so my only option is to sit and suffer through the next 100 something days of school. Which side note i feel like we have had so many more days than that like what is going on this is brazy i feel like we have been in school at lease like 120 days i do not know. I guess time really only flies when you are having fun.
So we were assigned to try to imamate Ben Franklin and try to follow a list of virtues for a week. Now I did not to well with this which was to be expected considering the man who came up with most of them could not even manage to do it himself. So if you know me I got about 1001 flaws but 2 of my main are my lack of willpower and my lack of motivation. So let us think about the fact that I was supposed to incorporate a set of whole new rules that were not completely necessary into my life. I was destined to fail from the get go. Some of them like resolution were impossible because I am constantly depressed and I want to do things but am never able to bring myself to do anything. Another one that was bound to fail was silence. I got a fat mouth i could talk for days about anything if if like you it is Berliner impossible to shut me up which is what it is but was not very helpful in this case. Order and moderation went out the window because I have no motivation to keep things clean and organized so instead I sleep and sit on my phone constantly which is not moderation so it was a pretty rough time for me. Frugality went pretty well for me because despite all the working I did in the summer I have like no money and if i spend any of it it has to be on something super good. Sincerity was another thing I think I did okay on I try as it is to be honest with people about my opions on them. Sometimes people need to know the truth so they can better themselves. Authenticy is probably about the only other thing I did well like I have become a lot better about being more open about who I am. Dispite the fact that I am a total sped half the time i have learned that if that is who I am gong to be that is who I am going to be and that is okay. Long as I am happy screw everyone else you feel.
I did not like writing poems for class at all. Honestly being forced to write a poem is high key the worst. Being forced to write anything is and that is why there are grown adults that hate writing and poetry. I do admire those who are able to overcome that trauma and major in English and write for a living I could never. The main difference between my two poems is that i kind of just rushed my fist one because i needed it done but on my second poem I tried to write about something i cared about. I wrote about poaching. Recently it has been getting a lot more attention from the media and animals are something I really care a lot about. It really breaks my heart to see how selfish and destructive people can be. To add more imagery I could add in some pictures of animals but some are a bit graphic so i am not real to sure
This is mad late due to crippling depression my motivation has been at 0 all week but i do not want to fail so I am going to put in some work now. I liked El Dorado quite a bit. It was good and at the time we were reading it i was not in the best mood so i liked it a little more because of that. I overall do like to write poems but not for other people to read. Like they are like strangely personal and like i do not want people to know my juice like that. Also i do not know what to write my poem about like i have to do a whole new one now and i just do not know a new topic. Like at my age i really have not experienced much like i feel like if i write about something too deep it will just be stupid and not real but if i write about something stupid i will hand in a dumb poem that you are going to judge anyway so i am really not sure. And like i guess i could write about something i do not like but then i am weird and sulky so i have no clue. I guess i could try to do Myles again but it did not work very well the first time because even though i love him there is only so much i material i have to write about a dog. Hopefully i can make up something good so i do not take to much heat.
So howdy y’all I have been working at AR for about 6 hours now mostly because my pea brain can’t focus for more than a solid 5 seconds I am gonna try my best to make another quality blog for yall so let us see. This masterpiece will be about The Sky is Everywhere by the lovely Jandy Nelson. The books follows Lennie through basically what is her journey of self discovery after the death of her sister. Now I do like Lennie but the whole book she made 110 problems for herself. I feel like in many of situations when was in were completely avoidable if she was trying to be a decent person. Let’s start off with the fact that she almost had sex with her dead and yes deceased sister’s fiance like what are you doing that is actually disgusting. And yes Toby was older and they were both going through a tough time but see a therapist or something like there are other ways to handle yourself. Now the whole time Lennie is making awful decisions with Toby she is leading on my man Joe. And let me tell you I love Joe he is the most beautifully broken boy. He is so darn precious and he cares about Lennie a lot he puts in a lot of work for her but she still manages to mess it up. Like sis you had the boy I do not understand. Then she went and played victim to Joe after he found out about her and Toby ( which she lied to him about inmore than one occasion) She broke Joe’s heart basically blamed it on the fact that she was going through a tough time. JOe had been through a lot and it is mad disrespectful for her to do him like that. Now don’t get me wrong I wanted them to get back together because I love that sappy mess but like real talk it would have been 100 percent valid if he dipped. Another thing she did was she snooped through her sisters stuff and wound up finding stuff about her missing mother which upset the whole family balance she had going on like why can you not just be happy with what you have you ingrate. Now I genuinely do like Lennie I think her and I are very similar both had a lot of self sabotaging tendencies and are very nosy. We both are also very big on the self pity train. Another thing i love about Lennie is the little poems she left everywhere. I think that was such a good way to develop her character and give us as a reader a direct look into what she was thinking and how she was feeling. Of course Joe was finding them and reading them which he was also using them to understand all the things she was going through. These poems ultimately lead to Joe forgiving her and them getting back together. My by far favorite thing about the book was the title. The title was taken from one of the poems Lennie wrote and it is basically saying that the pain of her losing her sister will never go away but she will carry it with her forever. I think it was a cute message and i love sweet stuff like that. Overall the book is pretty predictable but still very cute i cried like a small child at time but all in all it was a very good well written book but i would never expect less from the marvokus Jandy .
Let’s begin the goonery To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before by Jenny Han follows 16 year-old Lara Jean Covey Song, who writes love letters to all the boys she is loved (if the title hasn’t already spoiled you on that) as a sort of way to get over them. Then she stores them in a hat box her passed mother gave her. All heck breaks loose once plot twist -the love letters are mailed out to all the boys.I really liked then cover which is one of the things that drew me to it I know people say “don’t judge a book by its cover” (whether that’s meant for people or not), but I mean, come on, it’s super pretty.I.This book deals with love, family, sisterhood, relationships of all kind, and past friendships. All in all the book was definitely a sappy girly kind of read. I found it so out-of-the-blue that Peter Kavinsky ended up driving by Lara Jean. It was kind of out of the blue I found it crazy how Lara Jean ended up “randomly” picking Peter K. to be her fake boyfriend: there were about 105 other dudes other guys walking down the hall at the time Josh confronted her with the love letter. What I also found crazy and stupid, was how Lara Jean just fell for peter she made fun of him but it was playful. She never really stood up for herself. And she let him be mad disrespectful to both her and her friend Josh. She also never really asked him about the times he was seen with Genevieve when they were pretending to be a couple. Like, do not deal with this! Whether it’s fake or not, why was she just allowing him to be disloyal to her which is no bueno. Oh, and Josh. One, after such a long time and after God-knows-how-much they’ve been through, perfect older sister Margot breaks up with him. And also, Lara Jean’s reaction wasn’t realistic. Neither was the family, who were all apparently in love with Josh. I would be like: “But why?” and “That’s completely stupid-have you not heard of a long distance relationship? If you really-apparently-‘loved’ him, why would you be doing this? JAnd Margot was a whole other story: bossy, unaccepting, she was mad rude to lara. And i have a sister so i know where its coming from but there is a difference from being caring and thats why you are hard to just being a buzzkill. Over all the characters were high key bronagh and did not change much at all. Margot is the good girl, Kitty is the cute little sister, Peter is the bad boy that was “different”, Josh is the super sweet boy next door.Lara Jean was pretty much the only character that i could find very relatable and was really the only one who had any good juice to her. The prologue and last chapter were by far the best in the whole book. But I think there were a lot of unresolved issues. I liked how Lara Jean went through all of the letters Peter gave her each day. The setting of the end of the book being New Years, and how there was a content feeling of everything being okay between Lara Jean and Josh was pretty cute. Now after reading that you’re probably thing Victoria loves that sappy garbage what is going on. But the juice is I couldn’t write long about why i liked it so here is all the negatives so i could at least get this sucker close to 600 words.