Back to analysis

I thought we were done with poetry for the rest of the year, but throwing this at me has been like a smack in the face. Basically how this whole school year has been so far. But anyway back to talking about another poem. My first impression on The Dodo’s Conundrum was no different than how I feel about a lot of poems. It seems like it has a very deep meaning behind it, but I have no clue what everything in that poem means. The poem was kind of boring and hard to interpret. If I’m being honest, I don’t know what theme is to this poem but it’s probably something depressing. I’m going to assume that the theme is that everyone wishes to live in a perfect world, but they have to face reality. I don’t even know.

The whole poem is confusing in my opinion. My first question is why does the narrator wish to live in a perfect world? I feel like that would be extremely boring is everything was perfect. Like no crime, no differences, everything would basically be the same. Also, why do they talk about mermaids? I’m confused about that too. When the narrator says, “I look upon my little world”, are they still talking about the model train or are they talking about daydreaming? It could be both but I have no clue.

Answering those questions for The Dodo’s Conundrum were a lot harder than answering them for Eldorado were. I feel like Eldorado was just easier because we had a slight understanding about it. Like what the heck is a Dodo’s Conundrum. All I know is that a dodo is some type of prehistoric bird.

Writing poetry hasn’t really helped me read and analyze poems any better than before if you want me to be real with you. I was so confused reading this the whole time except for the first stanza. That was the easiest couple of lines to read , after that everything started going downhill. It probably would’ve helped a lot better if we went over this in class, we could put our input in and have a better understanding of The Dodo’s Conundrum. 

No more poetry!!!

I’m excited that we are not going to be talking about poetry anymore because it’s boring and extremely hard to write because you have to think a lot about different things. My perception hasn’t really changed except for that fact that I can’t write poetry to save my life. Some people weren’t born to write poetry and I seem to be one of those people. Writing poetry with requirements was harder then I thought it would be because I actually have to think about how it should be written and how to make it not sound or look dumb. Multiple things from my first poem to writing my second poem such as, the topic and the things I said in it. The first poem made me think harder because I didn’t really know how to shape it into a good poem. Also, when writing the second poem it was easier to rhyme words together and get a good rhythm out of it. My second poem was about someone I don’t like at all. They’re just a rude and angry person so I took all my anger and put it into a poem about how they irritate me and how much I dislike them.

I don’t even know if my poem would be more meaningful if it had visuals because you could honestly visualize most of things in your head if you really wanted too. I feel like it was written so you could visualize it, but if it was put into a visual type of thing I would have things like the different animals, fire, and some clowns in it. It could help people understand the true meaning and also interpret the poem better with images. Also, adding imagery to poems can help kids become interested in poems because they might not know what it means, but the pictures could help them. They could also add meaning to the way the poem sounds by how the narrator’s voice sounds or if it’s a male or female. Also, by the how fast or slow the person speaks and how the rhythm sounds.

Poetry

I don’t know how I’m supposed to talk about poetry if I don’t even like it. My reasoning for not liking to read poetry is having to take it apart and figure out what each line means and some of the poems that teachers pick out are sometimes not relatable at all and pretty boring. Any poems that I read (if I read any at all)  are relating to how I’m feeling or what I’m going through which brings more meaning to me. My reaction wasn’t anything new, all that was going through my head was “we’re going to have to break this apart and find out what it means”. We had to do that but we also had to find the rhythm of the poem and if it was stressed or unstressed.  The poems that we read weren’t painful to read, I just wasn’t that interested in them. Edgar Allan Poe has a unique way of writing poems that makes you want to know the actual meaning of some of his work. The analysis / discussion of Eldorado in class made it easier for me to understand the poem better than when I was doing the questions and trying to break it down by myself. It helped me understand the rhyme pattern and what he means for each stanza and what some of the symbols in the poem were. In my poem, I’m writing about my dog that just passed away last week. It’s going to be happy in the beginning, like when we first got her and how exciting and new everything was. Then the second part of the poem is going to be about her last days and how sad everything was when we lost her. It’s going to be depressing, but it’ll be a good poem. The most difficult part of writing this poem is trying to get the correct amount of syllables for each line and make the rhythm flow smoothly. Also, it’s pretty hard figuring out what words rhyme with each end word in the poem and making sure they all end either stressed or unstressed.

Finishing My Story

My first initial concept was to make it a really simple story and be able to get right to the good part, but looking at my final version of my short story I had included a lot and made it flow nicely. It has changed by the dialogue and how some of the characters act in the situation they’re in. It changed because I wanted to make the story more interesting for the reader to read. My thoughts on my story is that I have many things to change to make it more complete, it came out better then I expected it would. I like the flow of it and how the characters interact with each other in the story. Another thing I like about the story is that it’s not that boring to read and I tried to make it so the reader can have an emotional feeling to some of the characters. The thing that I don’t like about it is that I  didn’t really explain my characters that well and I should do that so my reader knows each character’s personalities. I also forgot a character and I have to find a way to somehow to include them in my short story.

Well about book 1, I forgot it was even in my backpack and I’m still in the same place I was two weeks ago, so I don’t have an opinion on the whole book right now. I’ll get to that when I actually finish it. I did get a second book today though. It’s called ‘We’ll always have summer’ by Jenny Kahn. I think think this book will be intriguing and a story I will enjoy by looking at the first page. My book choices don’t really have an affect on each other, I honestly just read whatever I find most interesting and if I don’t like it I won’t keep reading it. 

My Short Story

I honestly knew I had to do this, but like always I do things the day before or the day it’s due. Anyways back to what I’m supposed to be talking about: my short story. It’s about these four college kids deciding to spend the night in an abandoned haunted house on Halloween. After a game of drunk truth and dare, they think of each other differently and that’s when things start spiral out of control. There are a lot of surprises and scary stuff that happens that make the characters realize that they should forget about their disagreements and stick together as they die one by one. They all die at the end so yea lol. I developed the idea from my liking of horror movies and the six word short story, “Music came from the abandoned house”. The activities we have been doing has helped me a lot and also helped me develop my theme, “don’t give into peer pressure”. It has affected the way my story has developed by making me think more about what I’m supposed to be doing instead of putting words together and calling it a story. The deconstruction of the process has changed the way I write a story. It has changed it by knowing it takes time to write a good story and you can’t just rush it to get it done and over with. You have to think about how your characters are going to act and all the different conflicts that are going to be in it. Also, you have to think about what your theme is going to be and how people are going to relate to it and remember your story that you took the time to write. I always thought that writers just came up with a great idea and just wrote a story about it not giving it much thought, then giving it to people for feedback to make it better. This made me realize that you have to put a lot of hard work into your story and you can’t just make it all over the place or confusing.

Reconstructing Amelia

The book I’m reading at the moment is Reconstructing Amelia by Kimberly McCreight. My honest opinion on the book so far is that it’s very interesting and kind of confusing. It goes from Amelia’s point of view to Kate’s (Amelia’s mom) point of view, but in third person. It’s really weird when it switches because when it’s Kate’s part because Amelia is dead so she’s grieving and all sad, but then for Amelia’s part she’s alive and talking about what’s happening in her life. There’s one character that I have a strong disliking for and it’s Zadie. She’s rude and disrespectful, she’s always bringing people down and I feel like it’s because there’s something serious going on in her life. A character that I have respect for is Kate because after Amelia dies, she blames it all on herself. Amelia understood that her mom worked all the time and still tried to make time for her daughter. Kate feels like she wasn’t there for her daughter and she was the cause of Amelia’s suicide. There are many real life situations in the book such as, when Amelia started talking about the different “cliques” in her school, but her and Sylvia ( her best friend) weren’t in one. Many high school students can relate to this because they feel like they have to belong in a certain group so they won’t feel lonely. Also, I can relate to Kate and Amelia a little because of their busy schedules. They barely have time to just sit down and talk to each other because of everything that has been going on in their lives. I feel like I have no time for anything else because of my busy schedule. I think the story is going to end by Kate finding out the truth of how Amelia died. She thinks it’s not a suicide and she already has some clues to back it up. I also think that at the end of the story something horrible is going to happen to Kate and she’s going to end up in a coma or something and see her daughter and find out the truth about everything. 

Week Two

Starting notes the second week of school in American Literature didn’t really surprise me as much as I Think it should’ve. I’ve been taking notes in about two of my other classes since like the third day school. The notes did change my perspective when I watch television or read books though. They were more in depth then what I’ve learned previous years when we talked about these things. Also, it had new vocabulary that I’ve never seen before. I usually watch a lot of horror movies (most of them aren’t even scary) and the element that stood out the most was foreshadowing. There’s a great amount of foreshadowing in those type of movies, like moving into an old house or getting lost in the woods late at night, with a serial killer on the loose. It helped me understand that there are many things to look for while reading or watching something. The difference between observing a story and being an active participant is how you interact with it. If I was to ask questions about the story, I would be an active participant. If I just read the book to get it done and over with, I would be just observing. I’m both when I’m watching tv shows, I like to make predictions about what’s going to happen in the next episode or why a certain person is acting a certain way. While reading books, it depends on how interested I am. I’m more of an observer while reading. I could try and engage more into the book and find books that I actually enjoy. Week two wasn’t horrible (my sleeping schedule still is though). If I compared it to week one I would say it was better. It’s kind of boring the first week when you have to adjust to going back to school and the teachers having to learn names. The only thing that got me through the second week of school was knowing I wasn’t going to be in this state for about 24 hours. The only thing that has changed is having to take notes and getting homework, but nothing has drastically changed. 

First Week of Junior Year

It’s 11:00 p.m. at the moment on a Sunday and here I am procrastinating after I specifically told myself I was going to be productive this year. Well the first week was not horrible, but it wasn’t the best. I had about two hours of sleep the first day of school, but the nap I took when I got home was the highlight of my whole day. The long homeroom made me not want to attend school anymore because I really didn’t know what to do with my life. I didn’t have headphones so I was basically forced to listen to the boring conversations and most of the people I enjoyed talking to were asleep at that time. My first four periods and last period were really boring and I didn’t know how to entertain myself to at least try to stay awake. Lunch was interesting because for the first time in two years, I finally have lunch with people that I can actually tolerate for more than five minutes. As of now, I honestly don’t remember the rest of the week clearly except for little bits and pieces, probably because my brain is trying to block all of it out or it’s my bad memory. I found out that art is definitely not my thing cause I can’t paint or draw to save my life. I dreaded the ice breakers and having to say something about myself in my first two periods. Another highlight of my week was getting my paycheck on Thursday, I finally felt rich again and it was nice not having like two cents in my bank account. I don’t know nor do I care about the story of the week at Bloomsburg High. All I was focused on was going home and what I was going to eat when I got there. My expectations for this year are that there’s going to be less drama then last year and I hopefully will finally be getting onto the honor roll. I also hope that I don’t mess up and get bad grades. I have a feeling that I’m going to enjoy psychology because the teacher is always energetic and it makes my morning slightly less depressing. Anyway, I’m excited to be going to New York for labor day weekend and getting out of Pennsylvania for a little.